I've always been the girl who was looking for something more. I could never just look at what was present and be content with it. I thought being content meant giving up the idea that there could be something great on the horizon. I believed that the majority of the world was giving up on their potential by settling. As I approach the ripe old age of 30 next month, I am starting to realize I may have been wrong.
Recently, I have found myself content with my life in this small southern town and not being unhappy about that fact. In the past, my gypsy soul has taken me to many different places searching for happiness. Well, the fact of the matter is, I'm no Peter Pan. It's time to accept what is in the here and now. It's time to stop thinking I am missing out when there are plenty of great things already present in my life. The occasional downers that I used to think were reasons to leave are just simply the lows we all encounter in life. Leave it up to a gal who was spoiled as child to be so quick to think she needs to change her entire life just because things aren't sunshine & rainbows all the time. I thought being content meant being boring. I am 100% content (and currently happy) and not at all bored with how my life is at this moment. I've realized that when life looks a bit cloudy, you just need a little patience to wait for the sun to come back.
I'm sure that my talents could do great things in other places and could possibly be wasted here. However, if I chose to focus on that idea, I would obviously be sitting around wondering if there was something I was missing. And I hate the idea of being that person...the one who "what if's" her life away. I think it is more important to embrace where you are and appreciate who you surround yourself with. I have wasted a lot of time in my life being afraid of opening up to others and afraid of being happy. I'm done with those notions. I want to be happy and content and everything that comes with it. If I've learned anything, I know that there's no need to push life...everything falls into place when you least expect it. Because life knows that surprises are always more appreciated than when you were expecting it.
