my anti "phonies" rant

I try very hard not to be a fake person. The drawback to being "real" is that you can sometimes come off as a horrible person when you live in a world full of phonies. [Love that word...forgot about it until recently re-reading Catcher in the Rye...Holden Caufield could teach us all a thing or two.] Here's the thing, in a world full of phonies everyone is used to being told what they want to hear instead of the straight up truth. Now, I am blessed with a group of *burs* that tell it like it is yet love me just the same. Through my friendships with them, I have learned the value of honest friendships and being real no matter who doesn't like it. The bottom line is the truth even at its worst is more beautiful than a lie. [That's an original quote by Lindsey Wise, so write that down.]

That being said, I do not sugar coat things. It's a waste of time if you ask me. Because the truth of a situation will always find a way to make itself known. So, here's the truth that we all try to avoid & put on our rose-colored glasses about...Nothing lasts forever. And I ain't talking just about cold November rain...I mean, no exceptions to the rule...NOTHING lasts forever. So, there is no reason to delude yourself into thinking otherwise. Friendships grow apart. Careers get boring. Love fades & passion dies. And here's the part that is the hardest to accept [because the phonies try to convince you otherwise]

There is NOTHING you can do about it.

So, stop worrying about it. Start being real. People will appreciate you more in the long run for being honest. It occurs to me that I spend too much energy on being polite to people I'd just assume not talk to. If I have nothing in common with you anymore, I really don't see why we need to have an awkward conversation to catch up on each others' lives when neither of us really cares what the answer is. If you are a boy who has dissed me in the past and you know you were wrong for it, it's best for you to avoid me if there is alcohol in my system. I don't take kindly to being made a fool of to begin with, but with the help of vodka I will certainly let you know exactly how much I don't like it. I don't need to endure the awkwardness because YOU feel bad about being a jerk in the past.

Let's talk about these friendships that don't last...Friendships end for one of the following reasons [to name a few]: A. One friend did something that the other friend finds unforgiveable B. The two friends have different circles of friends that don't mesh [aka they have friends that are phonies] therefore those friends usually grow apart because their worlds collide C. Friends who live in different cities grow apart just like people in long-distance relationships...unless you are kindred spirits but let's face it not everyone can be lucky enough to have one of those ;) D. People grow & change on a daily basis. Unfortunately, you don't always grow together. That's life.

You know who I really appreciate [besides my burs]? Acquaintances who accept that relationship between us. The people I can share a smoke and a laugh with and then we rejoin our respective circles of friends. I enjoy those people who understand that it's okay to share a light, fun coversation and understand that we aren't going to be braiding each others' hair & dishing secrets later. The main reason I like these acquaintances is because they don't pout or talk badly about me if I see them and perhaps I don't have time [or maybe I have another agenda that night] to give anything more than a passing "hello."

I guess the point I'm getting at is that I really hate it when people get mad at me because things change. It's not like I sit around wishing for these things. But it's life and I've accepted that it changes whether I like it or not. So, do yourself a favor...live your life, go with the flow, be happy, and say hello to me when you see me. If it's a vodka/red bull night I can't guarantee I'll do more than wave but I'll tell ya this: If I don't wave or speak, you're probably in that category of people I don't want to have an awkward conversation with. Don't mean to hurt any feelings...just keeping it real. You should follow suit.

p.s. I've edited this one a couple times & to be quite honest I'm tired of thinking it isn't ready to be posted so here it is.....I'll be the first to say it's more of a "rant" than what I usually throw down....