shotgun

I am not an option. I am not a multiple choice question. I am not an essay question you get to study for. I am not a take home test that you can bring back on Monday. I am not a final exam that determines whether you pass or fail. I am not a survey to be used for evaluation. I don't come with a warning label. I don't have an advisory to forecast the future.

Being with me is unpredictable and risky. It means taking a chance. It's realizing that every day won't be a bed of roses. Every day won't be sunshine and rainbows. Some days will be like a hurricane with wild winds and hard rain. I will rage like a storm when the world gets to be too much. I will take it out on you when I don't know what else to do. Sometimes there will be damage left behind. But if you can wait for that calm after the storm, it will make you remember why you chose to be by my side. The not knowing is scary. I know, but here's a secret for you. I'm scared too. I forgot to bring my weather gear when you blew into my life. I wasn't ready for you, but I recovered quickly. Because nobody wants to miss a good storm.

I am unlike any woman you have ever met. I'm anything but typical. I refuse to be normal. I say what I feel and laugh when I want to, even if it's at the wrong time. I am unforgettable and believe me when I say that I will leave an impression whether you stick around or not. I suffer from a lack of patience and a country girl upbringing. I am not scared of being alone, but I don't like being lonely. I deny wearing my heart on my sleeve yet that's the only way I know how to love. I can make you smile even if the world has just crumbled all around us. I don't know how to do anything unless I am passionate about it. I am afraid of being happy. I am honest even when it's against my better judgement. I act like I can take care of myself, but it's only an act. I want you to take care of me and I will take care of you. I know how to be everything you'll ever need. All I need is the chance to show you.

I am a woman who is worth your time. I should be a priority, without any question. I will not change who I am. I will grow over time, but my core identity is rock solid and cannot be shattered. My pride is unshakable and is sometimes responsible for my biggest mistakes. I've been known to be a big disappointment. It's the last thing I ever want to do to you, so it's only fair that I warn you of that. The worst thing you could ever do to me is make me look like a fool. I find it hard to recover from a bruised ego because I never want you to see me as anything less than perfect.

This is who I am. I don't expect you to like every single thing, but I do expect you to respect my individuality, as I do yours. Life with me is anything but boring. I don't think about the destination. I live in the moment. I live for the ride. Are you ready to sit shotgun? Or will you be left behind?