i gave my heart to rock 'n' roll

"...it seems that love no longer can turn me on..." [from "Rock & Roll" by The Sounds]

I take a random song I downloaded after hearing it on some movie and I realize that it is EXACTLY how I feel about my "love life" right now. I don't believe in falling in love right now. Maybe I have too many other areas of life to worry about, but love just doesn't fit into my schedule. Some might say that it is depressing but I honestly cannot bring myself to feel that way about it. One of the next lines of that song is, "I gave my heart to rock 'n' roll." That got me to thinking that honestly I've been more emotional about music in my life than I have about most people in my life. I live vicariously through music. I fall asleep to it. I smile to it. I cry to it. I breathe to it. I, one hundred percent, LOVE it. I am in love with music...more than I've ever been with any man.

I don't cry in front of anyone, but play "How To Disappear Completely" by Radiohead after I've had a bad day and I will cry like a small child who just dropped their brand new ice cream cone on the sidewalk. I rarely melt from romantic gestures but I will melt when I hear "Secret" by Maroon 5 played in an acoustic set in a dimly lit bar. I don't think about my first love every second of the day but play "Please Remember Me" by Tim McGraw and every memory of us will rush back like it was yesterday. I don't get giddy & "twitterpatted" over any man but if I hear "Sparks" by Coldplay, the butterflies are immediate.

Music has this wonderful gift of making us remember exactly how we felt during some of our greatest and most devastating moments. So, while some people are living these things with others...I am choosing to live them through lyrics and melodies. I love that hearing a song can instantly take me back to a time and place that made me smile, or in some cases cut me to the core. Those times that cut me to the core no longer scare me when I remember them because I've learned those lessons & I'm better for it.

So, while some may dismay at their lack of love and companionship in their lives, I know that comfort is easily found on my radio. It's found by turning on my iPod and putting on my favorite playlist that holds all the comfort I need. While my bed is empty, my soul is content while those soft melodies of "Glorybox" by Portishead calm me. I cuddle up with Dave Matthews sweetly singing a cover of my favorite song of all time "Wild Horses" and fall soundly to sleep while John Mayer is "Covered in Rain."

I wake up to the Beatles letting me know "Here Comes the Sun" and Bob Marley telling me that "Every little thing is gonna be alright..." And I remind myself of my favorite movie line from Almost Famous: "I always tell the girls, never take it seriously. If you never take it seriously, you'll never get hurt. If you never get hurt, you'll always have fun...and when you get lonely, go to the record store and visit your friends."

I've given my heart to rock 'n' roll.