Wise Girl Revelation...

As many pieces that I have written as a "Wise Girl" you would think I would take my own advice. However, it has come to my attention that half the things I write I don't hardly ever apply to my own life. Well, every once in awhile the teeny tiniest of events can happen and it is the straw that breaks the camel's back. I woke up a few mornings ago and really hated all men. Of all the reasons that flowed through my brain, the number one reason is because I have let men control my emotions and drive me insane. As much of an independent woman as I put out there, I am nothing but "Little Miss Obsessive" when it comes to my own love life.

I blame my hopeless romantic nature on the fact that I continue to care about and love men who most likely never got past the stage of infactuation with me. I'm quite charming but apparently men forget any sense of staying power after a few weeks with me. (I've run off my share of men as well, but I think it's mostly because I wanted to beat them to the punch.) It occurs to me that I spend entirely too much time doing nothing more than "sitting, waiting, wishing" for some man to notice how wonderful I am and sweep me off my feet. In 26 years, I can count on one hand how many men have attempted such a bold gesture. So, knowing this why do I even waste my time on men who aren't worthy of it?

I have no idea why I don't have the power to make some men as miserable as they make me. Oh, wait because I'm actually a good person with a good heart. I don't like when people play with my heart, so I try to avoid doing it to anyone else. They say the person who cares the least in a relationship is the one who controls it. So, basically 90% of my "relationships" were not controlled by me. I'm not naive and I realize that at the very heart of it, it is my fault I have allowed this to happen. Well, this Wise Girl had one hell of a revelation this morning.

I am ready to have my "I hate men" stage in life. I think the only way I can learn my lesson is to avoid men for awhile. Clearly I understand that the world is full of them and I can't avoid them every single second of every day. What I mean is that I plan to focus more time on me and with the friends that love me. Because I really think they were onto something in that Sex & the City episode when one of the girls said, "Maybe our girlfriends are our soulmates and guys are just people to have fun with." Perhaps that mentality is best for now. It is time to let the feminist from within come out and play. I am woman, hear me roar! And boys, stay out of my way because I've had it with you for now. I am through worrying about what you think of me.

"Squint your eyes and look closer, I'm not between you & your ambition, I am a poster girl with no poster, I am 32 flavors & then some..." - Ani Difranco